Predicaments of a Fashion Lover: This Week's Predicament - Finding Your Way And Making Friends

This weeks predicament is about finding your own way and making friends - reflecting how blurred my past week or so has been. Uni is so busy but I've nearly had my first month away from home and starting my new life chapter! Crazy right?

What I've noticed is being away from home and starting from scratch gets you thinking of who you are as a person and what you want from life. It's not always positive or happy and you get a few nasty shocks. I've learnt so far that the person I was back home isn't someone I want to carry on being - don't get me wrong, there are certain parts of myself I like and will be keeping but I'm trying to shake off my bad habits and way of thinking.

I've decided I'm too much of a negative person and I rarely go for things I want to do in fear of failing - classic cliched way of thinking isn't it? I think most, if not everyone, has moments of thinking this way. I've been like this for way too long and I'm getting frustrated with myself. You know when I said starting this new chapter, like on Freshers week, no one knows who you are? How you can reinvent yourself? I'm trying that.

I don't know if it's because I'm from a cliquey small town or what but living in Scotland's largest city has got me realising how much I haven't grasped my potential as a person. And how, as cliched tumblr quote this sounds, letting other people's perceptions of me and going along with how others think has got me down and affected me negatively. Getting rid of that way of thinking? Fucking hard. Really fucking hard.

I guess this is me finding my way. And meeting new people? Scary but one of the best things. There are people out there who want to bring the best out of you, who want to support you and are so incredibly kind and patient. Who listen to you and don't shun what you say. And you realise how good it is filtering out the bad people and that letting new people in makes you grow.

So far I'm setting up small goals for myself and actually thinking of a future I can have. When you get stuck in your head you forget that you can do what you want, even if it's having a day in bed or choosing where you'll go for lunch.

This past few posts have been quite personal but if you're reading them and can relate? I'm very happy. Sometimes even learning someone else gets how you're feeling, feels like a blessing. These moments of thought are going to be what I have to come back too as I stray off the path, a reason I'm posting this.

I'm also thinking of starting a weekend style post as well, featuring fashion I see during the week of the public and learn a bit of that person. I'm excited for this new blog style and I hope if you read them, you enjoy them too :-)

Speak soon,